I have new pain lately under my arm pits and down the sides as well as from shoulder blade to shoulder blade. It feels like I'm deeply bruised and it is tender to touch, clothes, laying down on my back or sides... yeah sleeping is a challenge. I've been trying to keep it all in as last week was busy with school activities and the Princess had her birthday festivities this weekend. Last night I could not sleep as a result of the pain which of course leaves me so exhausted in the morning. I don't think the King was very appreciative of the timing of this latest sleepless night as he needed me up this morning and had a hard time waking me. That always makes me feel like a failure as a Mom and a wife ( I put that on me, he doesn't even though I know he gets frustrated).
This week is my personal week of appointments that are supposed to make me feel good - hair and nails, even lunch with a friend. It's something that I've not done for years and an important part of me finding time for myself and feeling better. I honestly don't know how I'm going to swing it all and would rather just crawl back into bed. Can you believe I'm dreading doing stuff that I wasn't able to do for me for years? Yeah, I'm that pathetic. *sigh*
I just wish that I could get on top of this again. Part of me almost wishes I never had that glimpse of normal life- little pain, good energy, etc back in December. I was coping better with these limitations and frustrations before that. I'm really down on myself and I know that I push things too far sometimes because my family so enjoyed me being normal. I just don't know what to do.
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- The Queen and the Pea
- This is my journey through fibromyalgia. A place to share my trials and victories as I navigate my way through to my healing from this affliction.
What is Fibromyalgia
The Royal Family
The King - the love of my life who has stood by me through all of my trials with mostly patience and understanding. He is the rock that encourages me to keep doing whatever I need to in order to feel better. He doesn't let me give up and picks up the slack when I am out of commission.
The Prince- our oldest son. He is a great kid even with all the teenage angst. He is slowly coming to an understanding of what fibro does to me instead of just focusing on what those words have done to him. There still beats the heart of my compassionate boy under that teen exterior.
The Princess- Our only daughter and a little mother to her brothers. She is of great help to me. She is beautiful, talented and sweet. She is also mature beyond her years. Her heart is huge.
The Jester- He keeps us laughing with his antics and knows just when I need a hug. He is intense and funny, loving and hard working. He is most like the King in personality.
The Little Prince- The baby whose personality is blossoming more each day. He is smart, musical and loves being the youngest. His feet or hands are rarely still when music is in the air. His latest motto is "It's ok to sing if you feel like it".
The Prince- our oldest son. He is a great kid even with all the teenage angst. He is slowly coming to an understanding of what fibro does to me instead of just focusing on what those words have done to him. There still beats the heart of my compassionate boy under that teen exterior.
The Princess- Our only daughter and a little mother to her brothers. She is of great help to me. She is beautiful, talented and sweet. She is also mature beyond her years. Her heart is huge.
The Jester- He keeps us laughing with his antics and knows just when I need a hug. He is intense and funny, loving and hard working. He is most like the King in personality.
The Little Prince- The baby whose personality is blossoming more each day. He is smart, musical and loves being the youngest. His feet or hands are rarely still when music is in the air. His latest motto is "It's ok to sing if you feel like it".
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